Fabrizio Ulivieri

  by Math Cassidy I am a policeman. I have sworn on the constitution to serve my people and my country Am I doing this? I was young when I swore. Now I am 45. I have a family now, I have a wonderful wife and two kids. I have a loan to pay. I bought a house many years ago and I am still paying for it. But I have a house for when I am old, where I can terminate my life. I have something to leave to my children, something to be remembered for. I was young when I swore. I was an idealist, then. We lived among ideologies at that time, we lived restricted by a great many values like honour, courage. respect and even forlon words as God, Jesus, Mary, charity, love, compassion...and priests smelled like priests and the Pope was the vicarious of Christ upon this world. And now, am I truly the same person? How many cells in my body died from that day on? What am I today? No one ever told me that fear feels so like pain. Because I am afraid when they come towards us. And I am in pain because I fe

  There is a creative and loving force inside most of us that guides us through life. These people don’t have this. For them it’s the opposite. (Mel Gibson) In those Days   I had to find a religion to measure my evil against. Evil has already gotten a strong tinge of cruelty. God was dead, Church was dead. The major part of us was so frail in front of such a fraud. I used to write science-fiction novels, but I stopped in those days. Reality was more interesting than science-fiction. I couldn’t write a book anymore. I did not know how to plot a story, any longer. I was quiet, too quiet. I was thrilled, too thrilled. I was in a quagmire. I was dying in it. I was pervasive. I was everywhere. Was I alive? I thought so. I was not dead, ergo I was alive. That was the masterpiece of my life... A masterpiece of resonance. I was going around on a new battlefield. A Purgatory which was worse than the Hell. But it was bliss in the end. It was bliss even though I didn't believe in Hea